This may not look like much, just me in my room thinking, but it means so much more. This year I've gained more in the way of wisdom, friendships, skills, confidence, and love and lost just as much. I've been in love and felt the joy of having that love returned, then later had my heart broken. I've lost old friends, dealed with issues no 15 year old should have to, and come through all of it with more insight and knowledge as far as the workings of the world and myself than I could ever imagine. I've grown up.

"And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time."

"How the hell did we wind up like this? Why weren't we able, to see the signs that we missed And try turn the tables?"

"No one can believe in things that never change And it's over to you And I can't find the answers when you're gone."

"Are you alive?Amigone? Was the poison in our blood there all along?"

"They don't need me, don't want me, don't hear a word I say"

"And it's fallin' all around us Is this some kind of joke they're trying to pull on us? Fallin' all around us I'll turn my head off for a while"

"See I'd love to be you At least then I'd see you Sorry I put them words in your mouth But you wouldn't talk to me"

"I don't take the bus and I never walk too far The furthest I got was my own backyard A fist full of cash that somebody else earned Send me some more when it all got burned"

"And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything feels like the movies Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive"